April 1969
The ministering angels gather close, the healers, the teachers, the loved one, and the wise one. And you ask the Father, the giver of life and love, to forgive you when you feel depressed, anxious, and down-hearted. These very things occur to any human soul who has asked to be used in the service of God. And because the Spirit is one with the Great Spirit it rejoices, it is quiet, it is confident, it is in repose, absolute, at peace. And because one feels these other distractions, and because, human nature being what it is, the depressions are caused, as we have told you before, through the psychic attack, brought about through and by the uneasy, frightened, ignorant thoughts of the undeveloped.
These thoughts are things and are, in very truth, round and about the whole of the time. Now one who has prayed to serve, and one who has prayed for light, because he has asked for those things, he has had them granted unto him. Now light would not be necessary if it were not for the great darkness, the great darkness that is all around, yet it is not comprehended by the mass, by every man. And in the darkness there are many enemies of the light. There are the winds of fear, ignorance, jealousy, and hate. All these things are against that which is right, that which is good, that which is of God, and it is very difficult for the light to shine perpetually in these adverse conditions.
It is these winds which cause the flame to flicker, hence the anxious thoughts, the depressions, and the longing to be away from it all. But in very truth, to be able to shine and to guide in this great darkness through your life is a very wonderful thing. And in all these talks and conversations, it is cur desire to bring you comfort, knowledge, understanding, and love. And we want you to know that, the more difficult the conditions, the more powerful the light, the more valuable. the darker the conditions, the more useful, necessary, is the light. And we want you to keep this light burning in all conditions through first of all your faith, your hope, and your charity. Now you have fulfilled these conditions. You have had faith, you have hope, and you have been charitable. We tell you now, you cannot fail, Mary, you cannot fail. Others may fail you but this is sad indeed.
As Easter draws near you must remember the words "Father, forgive them, they know not what they do." Think you as to the pains and agonies of Jesus upon the cross. Compare your own with these. And if He was able to say with His dying breath "Father, forgive them" so can you. They are but little children, weak even an even an you, even as we. Still needing, still having to depend upon a power which we cannot see, and which we cannot fully understand. But know this. to be true, 'God is not mocked'. If you have been absolutely sincere, and you have, in your dealing, let this be as a rock beneath your feet.
There is no need to turn to the left or to the right. Look straight in front. Know where you have come from and where you are going, Do not let these winds affect you, but be firm and allow your light to do God's work in the great darkness and you will find that these ones will come back to show their appreciation of they know not what. Do not let bitterness enter in. Be quiet, have patience, and all will be well. We are talking about not just this one and that but of the whole world. How can you expect to be free of depression and anxiety in such a place. The darkness is greater than it has ever been before and this is sad because…
This transcript reframes depression and anxiety, felt by someone genuinely trying to serve, as an inevitable cost of the work itself — a candle flickering "through the winds of fear, ignorance, jealousy, and hate" that surround anyone holding a light in real darkness. The Spirit within remains "quiet, confident, in repose, absolute, at peace"; what flickers is the flame's contact with the surrounding weather, not the flame itself. This is close to the "psychic impact" named in earlier transcripts — the vulnerability that comes specifically from having opened oneself to others, not from any failure in the searching itself.
Its central reassurance is proportional rather than comforting in the ordinary sense: "the more difficult the conditions, the more powerful the light... the darker the conditions, the more useful, necessary, is the light." Struggle here isn't evidence the work isn't working — it's close to confirmation that it is, since a light shining in easy conditions would need no strength at all.
The transcript asks something specific and difficult in return: to meet others' failures and betrayals as Christ met his executioners — "Father, forgive them, they know not what they do" (Luke 23:34), spoken from the cross itself. The standard set is severe by design — compare your own pain to His — but the point isn't guilt, it's proportion: if forgiveness was possible there, in that extremity, it remains possible here. "God is not mocked" (Galatians 6:7) is offered as bedrock beneath sincere effort, regardless of how others respond to it — a promise that sincerity itself cannot ultimately be cheated, whatever the immediate cost of holding the light.